Wednesday, October 20, 2010

amazing lyrics...could be me

Not a big fan of the song, but when the lyrics are in front of me, they're powerful.

Something More by Ginny Owens

Something MoreI've spent half my lifetime watching time go by
And wondering where it went
When I try to fall asleep at night
I lay there feeling spent

Contemplating what the next day's gonna hold for me
Tossin' turnin', my mind is churnin'
Thought won't let me be

Every morning meets me with a list of all I have to do
Every evening greets me with the knowledge that I'm never through
Every taste of success makes me vow to never fail
Feels like I just chase my tail

There's gotta be something more than running circles for a living
Gotta be something better than just trying to survive
Gotta be some important puzzle piece that I am missing
Gotta be something more to life.

If every picture tells a story, Mine must be a mystery
'Cause I lose sight of who I am and who I am
And who I'm supposed to be
Looking back on what I've built
And all that I've achieved
Only leads me to believe

Tired of these hopeless places
Bored with my earthly things
So I must fill my empty spaces
With the love that heaven brings


I'm running more now than I have ever run in my life.  Usually 3 days/week right now about 3 miles a pop.  In my past life, pre-motherhood, the furthest I ever ran was a 5K.  Once.  So 3 miles/run is a lot for me and yet I'm stuck.  I seemed to have hit some sort of rut.  Can't seem to lose any pounds, don't seem to be losing any inches, the jeans are still tight.  Grrrrr.

I was doing so well until I got pregnant, now I can't seem to get back on track since the m/c.  I'm SO frustrated!!!  I'm well aware that I may never get the body back that I want, but I thought I could make some sort of progress again.  Hmmm. 

I am not big on diets, calorie counting, points, or the like, but I am thinking I need to do something about my food choices.  But, I need to be wise about that so I don't end up on the wrong side of the precarious lifetime effort, attempting to not sink back into eating disorder. *sigh*